As usual, this week’s Dungeon Prompt is one that makes us explore our inner realms. Here are the questions we were asked to address:
Imagine that you were in an accident and you can feel your life fading away. With your last breaths, what does your mind fly to? Are you scared? Accepting? Worried for friends or family, work unfinished or some other business? Does your focus change to the hereafter? With your final breaths, to what do you cling?
I had an experience about 17 years ago that gave me some sense of what might happen when that time of my life comes. In December of 1997, I took my yearly trip to Amritapuri, Amma’s ashram in Kerala, India. Half-way between Singapore and India, our plane started shaking. Simultaneously all of the oxygen masks fell from their compartments. As we struggled to put on our masks, the plane started falling, first 15,000 feet, then another 10,000. The entire fall took about a minute. As the plane began to descend, my daughter and I glanced at each other and then we each focused inward. My mantra immediately started flowing freely within me. With the mantra came a great sense of peace. I had awareness that if I died that day, I could leave the earth without regret. I had no sense of unfinished business. (You can learn more about that experience at A Reason to Believe.)
When I arrived in Amritapuri, I learned that Amma knew our plane was in trouble at the time that it happened. When I went for her darshan (hug) later, she whispered in my ear, “Karuna, BIG Problem.” I believed that the peace I felt as the plane descended was because Amma was with me.
A few weeks ago, a friend of mine, who was also a devotee, died after a long bout with cancer. She was in a comatose state during the last days of her life. As she neared the end, she started breathing slower and slower. I was told she was very peaceful at that time. At some point, her husband said he felt Amma’s presence in the room so strongly. Shortly thereafter, my friend simply stopped breathing.
At the memorial service there was a recording of a song recently written by friends of hers. It’s title was ‘In the Mother’s Arms – Goodbye’. (Amma means “Mother”.) I was told that the song had ‘come’ to those musicians in the very moments that my friend passed…
There are many accounts of people seeing a white light right before they die. People who have had near death experiences have reported walking into the white light. Some have said that Jesus was there to greet them. My fantasy and hope for my own passing is to see Amma standing in the light with open arms. I want to walk into that light and go directly into her arms.
I believe that something like this will happen when I die if I l make my spiritual journey the primary focus of my life. I also believe that a peaceful death is most likely to occur if I continue to live in a way that I am able to leave the world having no unfinished business and no regrets.
May it be so
Shanti, Shanti, Shanti
Peace, Peace, Peace